My how things change....

Well, it's been a while since my last post and things have certainly changed a bit. Not sure where exactly to start but here goes....

After a few months at my job I came to the conclusion that it is NOT the right job for me. For one thing, it made me realize that I do not have the personality to teach young children. I simply don't have the patience for it. Second, I chose a job that had no previous music program to speak of (which I knew) and no resources to use. My principal is willing to spend a decent amount of money on resources but they could take 6 months to get here. In the meantime I have been making it all up as I go. With everything, it has just been too overwhelming.

That, along with the incredible strain of a cross-world relationship, resulted in my decision to resign at the end of the school year and return to Florida. I gave my notice at the school and was at peace with the decision. I have been applying to the counties near home and I even booked my flight. The plan was to stop in NM for 2 weeks before heading home to Florida. Well, last weekend my cross-world relationship came to an end. I suppose I'm just not what he wanted. Yes, I have been heartbroken and in pain since then....but I know I will pick up and move forward, as always. Now with that factor removed I can't really stand the thought of going back to Florida. I would be going back to the EXACT same life that I came out here to get away from. What have I even accomplished since I've been here? Yes, I have been living in Vietnam for 6 months but....what else? Nothing!

With this new turn of events I have been re-evaluating everything I am doing. I'm back to having no ties to any location so I'm exploring all of my options. I have applied for a job in Beijing, Dubai, and Colorado. My coworker also gave me the idea to ask my principal about staying at my school and working in another capacity. I e-mailed him about it yesterday (he's in Hanoi on business) and he said he would love to keep me on board and we will talk tomorrow when he gets back about options. That might be my best option. That way I'm not breaking my contract, just changing jobs within the school, and getting experience teaching other subjects. That will make me more marketable down the road. I'm not decided that that is what I'll do because there are still other factors but it would be nice to stay here since I've settled in. I really do want to finish this experience. If I do stay I have no idea what my next step will be. I am applying to work for the Department of Defense school system for the 2013-2014 school year. That will give me the chance to work overseas on a military base. As for now, the next step is to talk to my principal tomorrow about options for staying here. I'm not ruling anything out at this point and I'm really trying to search myself for the answer. Only time will tell.....